Contradicting.
Thursday, March 06, 2008 at 7:39 PM
Yobusey-yo~~The month of March is here & a month away, i'll be attending school soon. My appeal was successful to get into Temasek Poly, thank God! :)
& i'm going to China this March holidays for a week. Im going to spend great times with my parents, uncle, aunt, cousins and my beloved grandma! :) It's a trip that Im looking forward too. My first trip travelling with grandma overseas and also with my uncle, aunt and cousins. & also after a long time my father actually went overseas with me and my mother. Cool.
So for the past few weeks, I've been staying over at my cousin's place. Everyday was spent relaxing-ly and fun. Im gonna continue staying until I've got to go back to school for Poly. Haha. It's good to have a companion cos' my cousin is waiting for her A level results which is going to be out like in a few hours time. She's worried and seems stressed over it but at least it was only today and not the rest of the days. Hope she's ok.
I've heard from my mom that my sister won't be joining us and that Ah yi was super pissed with her because she wasted the ticket. I don't know what to say and I won't take sides with anyone. Everything's so last minute and I did mentioned many a times to start asking but to no avail, somehow, she wanted to wait.. or push further so that she won't have to go. Whatever lah, Im sick of actually being the one to keep asking and get emo-ed and unhappy at for no reason.
I've been thinking, that why some people are showing such actions and behaviour. It's so condraticing and stressful to see things in such a way. One minute, you can be saying you want to trust the Lord, you want to change, & who don't know it takes time but the point is, you're not showing when you're suppose to. Plus, not coming to church and even choosing to not come. What's the point of saying all the trust and changing crap when you CHOSE to not come? Then, some would treat their friends like treasures and important people in their life, but their family like some enemy? They just simply talks rudely to you when they're having mood swings and we have to see their unhappy, sulky and ugly faces and listening to their rude mono-tones of 'YA' and 'WHAT LAH'. When they can talk ages on the phone speaking super nicely with their friends & always thinking of going out. Studies is left aside to actually rot and grow fungi on, then once you start opening your mouth to just ask super nicely of 'why are you not studying?' Then they will ignore you and when you probe further, they will start showing angry and that kind of do-not-disturb-or-i'll-explode face and answer, 'WHAT LAH' again..
I hate attitude problems. Im sick of trying to talk sense. Ya, I can choose to not say whaat. But I chose to do so, because I care. & sometimes, I feel so unapreciated, like Im some kind of invisible and translucent thing that does not exist when i put in a lot more than anyone else. Seriously, I've said enough and it doesn't work. Not being mature at such a age? It's slow.. & i think it's weird to be. & they don't get it, they don't understand. They just enjoy their life away. & when they're stress, it's like something SUPER BIG and they would choose to run away. Ahhhhhhhh, forget it.
Im pissed off. I don't want to but I am. I feel so useless again.
Labels: Contradicting and pointless.